Oh, men.

Here's a few of my celebrity crushes. Gosh. Be prepared because THEY.ARE.HOT.

Milo Ventimiglia
Paul Rudd
Ryan Reynolds
Ashton Kutcher
Josh Homme (the younger, less fat version)
Joel McHale

I always seem to forget a few crushes and later I remember them. But here's the ones I never forget. Super sexy. Ryan Reynolds and Milo Ventimiglia are my favorites. I mean. Look at them. Dammit. I don't have anything else to tell else it will get quite freaky and I don't want to come across like a weird obsessed freak. And I am not but you know it's the internet and my English isn't the best you've ever read and some words might be wrong.. So I'm just gonna stick to this.

Boyce Avenue

Fabian, Alejandro, me & Daniel.

Anneke, Savannah, me & Tessa.

Here's a blog about a band that some of you may know but a lot of you don't know or only from my stories. It's about BOYCE AVENUE <-click->. Boyce Avenue is a band from America that started putting up videos of their covers on YouTube and became famous because of that. But, they also have their own album with their own songs. And believe me, those songs are amazing. My favorite cover by them is probably their cover of Slide, by the Goo Goo Dolls. It was the first cover of them I watched and then I just fell in love. So I subscribed and kept following them on YouTube. They were in Holland twice, in 2010. But I only went the second time because I found out too late the first time.

October 28, 2010.
My friend Tessa and I arrived at the Sugarfactory (venue, that is also part of de Melkweg). We thought we'd be the first one there because it was so early but we weren't. 2 very nice girls, Sharlynn & Malu were there before us. But that didn't matter, they were nice and also big fans of Boyce Avenue. Some other people joined us in waiting for the doors to open. As we sat there, Bruno Mars (who was performing in de Melkweg that night with Travis McCoy) came by and I wasn't really interested in taking a pic with him but I went anyway. No nerves what so ever, but then Boyce Avenue walked by and I just there like.. oh my.. that is.. that is.. oh my.. no way.. boyce avenue.. And I didn't even dare to walk up to them because I was quite nervous. Luckily my best friend Tessa took me with her and the funniest thing was: they actually recognized me. It's not that weird since I have a tattoo of the lyrics from their original song Dare To Believe and not that many people had that.. But still I thought that was very awesome. So I took pics with them twice and then we went inside the venue for the concert. Lemme tell you one thing: That was magical. Really. And that's where I fell in love with them for real.

May 4, 2011.
My second time Boyce Avenue, with Tessa, Malu & Sharlynn. While waiting outside, another girl, Iris, joined us. We had so much fun and what bonded us the most was our love for Boyce Avenue. And another girl, also named Michelle, also came to talk to us and she was really nice! Honestly, I can't remember that much about that concert.. Only that BA was there late because of a traffic jam.. But the support act they had was amazing. This was Nick Howard! He's aaaaaaaaamazing. Such a beautiful voice and really funny and nice. Every time he came outside he was like "hey guys" and we knew who he was but the other people just sat there with big imaginary questionmarks above their heads. His performance was great and his songs are soooooooo good!

November 16, 2011
Boyce Avenue for the third time. Anneke and Savannah were joining our group this time. They are very very VERY sweet girls. This was the best time I've had, waiting outside for a concert. We were standing in a circle, having fun, and then Boyce Avenue came by. Daniel immediately gave us all hugs and he thanked us for waiting because it was so cold. Of couse we were waiting for so long, we always stand front row and that won't change. We won't let that change, ever. Later, the support act Tyler Ward walked by and he was one of the people I've been waiting to see live for so long. But you know, the moment he walked by I was acting dumb again. I was talking to Iris' phone charger, I was actually saying "HELLO? HELLO?". Oops. A couple of hours later we went inside. Of course we stood front row, Anneke, Iris, me, Savannah (behind me), Tessa, Sharlynn & a friend of hers. Tyler Ward was quite good even though he laughed more than he played or sang. Boyce Avenue was really, really good this time. And it was lots of fun with all the girls. Afterwards Tessa, Savannah, Anneke, me & someone else got to meet BA backstage. As always, they were sweet and funny. Then we went outside again where I talked to Jason, their drummer, for a while. And I keep saying it; he was nice also. Dammit. All those guys are nice. Tessa and I went to our hotel (which was so darn cold man I could've rented a fridge and sleep in that better than in here) by taxi since Tessa almost couldn't walk anymore. Our room was small but it had a shower and beds. The next day Tessa went home early and Savannah, Anneke and I decided to meet up. We went shopping for a couple of ours and then Anneke and I had to go home also :-(. It were 2 amazing and fun days with lovely people.

I can't tell you how much I love Boyce Avenue because I love them so much it confuses me in thinking how much I love them. Ehh.. I don't even get that sentence. I met amazing people because of them and every time I go to their concert I have a great day. I have to thank them for all of that.

But they're not coming to Holland this year.. They put up their tour dates. Germany, Belgium, France, the UK.. No Holland in there. I will try if I can go see them elsewhere but it's so expensive. The tickets cost about 30 euros and getting there will at least cost me 50 euros and then I have to rent a hotelroom also. Which will cost me at least 80 euros. That just sucks. But I can't do anything about it.. I will love them anyway.

So thank you, Boyce Avenue and all the girls who make waiting for their concerts fun. You are amazing and so much fun. <3

Valentine's day.

A lot of bloggers are blogging about Valentine's day today. Well, I'm going to do that also. How unexpected, huh?

Valentine's day is the day my parents give me a card that says "I love you" with a short poem, which mostly makes my mom cry. Valentine's day is the day everyone gets to enjoy being surrounded by their loved ones. Valentine's day is just a day like any other day should be. I mean, what IF there's people that only say they love each other on valentine's day. I think that's ridiculous. Just say "I love you" every once in a while, when it's unexpected. I don't say this because I've never had a boyfriend on Valentine's day (tbh I don't really give a shit about that) but I say this because it's the thought of many others also. Also, when you like someone you don't say that anonymously. If you want it to have a future, just say it on a day like any other day and say it yourself. Don't write a card signed by "anonymous" because it's just lame and it's for pussies.

I thought I was going to forget it was Valentine's day today but I got reminded by all the hopeless people in my TimeLine on Twitter. They all go like "Forever alone day" "gonna spend this day with my only love; food. Forever alone" well if you behave like that you're most certainly going to be forever alone YES. And then there's the people that actually get MAD when they don't have a secret valentine. I mean, c'mon, be happy with the ones that love you already. And there's also single people that bash Valentine's Day because they don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend. Those are the ones that tweet shit like "Forever alone day" "gonna spend this day with my only love; food. Forever alone". Besides, you do not fall in love because you WANT, you fall in love because you LIKE someone. Some people fall in love because they want to, well good luck with that because it ain't gonna last long.

To all the happy couples: enjoy Valentine's day. Just remember to say "I love you" more than once a year.

Lots of love,
Michelle.

The days after.

If you're one of the many people that read my blog about the Gavin DeGraw DAY last Wednesday, you know what this blog is gonna be about! Yep, it's about the days after.

It was an incredible day, one of the best days I've had in a while. And mostly after that, I feel quite upset. This time it's different, I feel good and happy. I talk to the people I was with a lot and I every time I see my pictures with Ian, I smile. It's such a great memory of an amazing day full of music and lovely people! I just can't be sad about it. I never like to watch YouTube videos of the show because I feel like I want to remember it the way I experienced it, not someone else. My belly stopped achin' but everytime I laugh it still hurts a little. My arms don't hurt anymore but when I start clapping they start hurting a little again. But then I just laugh because that ALSO reminds me of Wednesday. I just had such a blast and I'm even smiling whilst typing this. It just really was one of the best days ever and one of the funniest gigs ever. I did feel quite sad about my best friend Tessa, not being there. But she went to see Gavin the day after and she enjoyed it just as much as I did. So we talk about the shows we went to and it just feels like we went there together!

Friday I came to work and everyone was asking how it has been and they were all like "you look so happy!!... and tired" and I was. I was so darn tired it was a miracle I could even open my eyes. But you know, it was ALL worth it.

Now I am going to eat some more candy whilst singing Candy by Gavin. It sounds lovely, I can tell you. Thank you so much for reading!

Lots of love,
Michelle.

Here it is!

Gavin Degraw. February 8 2012.

Off to the supermarket to get some drinks and candy. Also ended up buying gloves because it's so fucking cold outside. Back to the bus and off to the train station to meet up with Marloes, Krijnie and Anita! Marloes was already there when I arrived and a couple of minutes later Krijnie and Anita arrived also. We had fun immediately and drove about an hour to get to Hilversum where we also picked up Elvira! We went straight to the BNN studios where the That's Live (a dutch radio show on 3fm) session with Gavin Degraw was gonna be recorded. We got there and there were lots and lots of people but still we got upstairs first. Said hi to DJ, Eric Corton, that I didn't see in quite a while! The first 2 songs by Gavin (and Billy) were so good!! Gavins interview(s) were funny as heck. And the last 2 songs he played there were great also! I was already looking forward to the evening.

On our way to Amsterdam we went to eat at MacDonalds and ended up sitting there for about 2 hours. It was nice and warm and I loved the couch I had all for myself. We decided to go and dropped Elvira off at Amsterdam Central Station cause sadly she went home.. That was a bit of a bummer.

We continued our journey to the Melkweg where Gavin would perform that evening. We met up with a good friend of mine, Savannah! Once we got in we decided we were goign to stand on the stairs. There we would have space and we could sit whenever we felt like sitting. Dotan (a dutch singer/songwriter) was his support act and with 4 songs it was short but very good! Unfortunately I didn't make any photos because I wanted to enjoy the show and enjoying means singing along, dancing and making weird moves with my arms. My camera would probably fly across the room if I would've made photos.

Then something happened. Gavin's band came on stage and after them, there came Gavin. I mean, the show started so great right away and tbh it only got better as the show moved on. The songs are even better live and it's really worth your time and money to go see him. So go if you can. I'd even go another couple of times if I could. His band is so good, and so much fun to look at. Also very handsome so if you don't like their music you can also go and just watch them. No. I did not just say that. But really, I loved the sort of "jam introduction session" they did to introduce the band to us, the audience. And then................. NICK FROM NICK AND SIMON (the dutch know how fucking BAD THIS IS.) came on stage during the last fucking song that SHOULD HAVE BEEN a fucking party but WASN'T because of Nick.. NOT OVER YOU. I mean c'mon!!!!!!!! That can never be good. What a partypooper. Sheesh. But the rest of the concert was so super awesome and totally worth waiting in the cold. I just said that but I only had to wait for like half an hour. My absolute favorites were Run Every Time & Follow Through.

The show ended and we waited for Marloes, she was at the same venue but at another band. So we had to wait until that ended and it did in A FRICKIN HOUR AFTER GAVIN. When Marloes arrived we went outside and spotted Gavin's drummer, Ian, at the tourbus. We got to talk to him and we actually took a picture with him. I think mine are so cute. He's a really nice guy! He had to go into the tourbus and we went to the car. We needed drinks and food (candy.....) and continued our journey home! Again we had so much fun and actually my belly stilll aches from laughing so hard. Krijnie and Anita dared me to shut up for a couple of minutes but I couldn't do it. Once I got home I didn't go to bed right away even though I was very cold and tired. I had to tweet and facebook a little, and then I went to bed. Now I'm just very glad I still have my voice. I sang along so loudly and I danced a lot. I also clapped a lot (for about 20 minutes) and now my muscles hurt.

The pictures of Ian and me are up there on the side!

I had a blast, thanks to everyone that was there to make it even more awesome!!!

Lots & lots of love,
Michelle

Gavin DeGraw.

SERIOUSLY.
It was SO awesome!!! First the short show at That's Live (radio) and then the show at the "Melkweg". FUCK. This was AMAZING! I will write a longer blog later on because I'm really too tired to even speak or listen. Krijnie, Anita, Marloes, Elvira & Savannah, THANK YOU SO MUCH for making this day even more awesome than it already was. I had a blast!!!

Long blog coming up :-)

X

Quick blog: TOMORROW!

I have been talking about it for quite a while and very often:
TOMORROW I AM GOING TO SEE GAVIN DEGRAW.
TWICE.

Tatoeages.

Ja, hoera! Een blog in het Nederlands. Deze keer over tatoeages. Over die van mijzelf, maar ook over wat ik er van vind. Laten we beginnen met mijn eigen tatoeages, om te zorgen dat het voorlopig nog even leuk blijft om te lezen.

Ik heb 4 tatoeages. Mijn eerste is er een die ik zelf ontworpen heb. Een diamant, met vuur er om heen en een muzieknoot in het midden. De diamant staat voor iedereen die ik lief heb, het vuur voor kracht en bescherming en de muzieknoot lijkt me duidelijk.. Dat staat dus voor muziek. Ik ben lang bezig geweest met het ontwerpen van wat ik wil. Ik ben er in totaal zo'n 4 jaar mee bezig geweest, en toen ik dit ontworpen had wist ik gelijk dat ik het wilde hebben. Ook wist ik waar, een symmetrische plek. Mijn ruggengraat, aan de bovenkant welteverstaan.

Mijn tweede tatoeage zijn de woorden "Embrace Forgiveness". Ik wilde sterke woorden, die echt iets betekenen voor mij en waar ik echt iets aan heb. Een van mijn favoriete bands is Boyce Avenue en toen ik naar hun liedje "Dare To Believe" zat te luisteren, kwamen deze 2 woorden daar in voor. Gelijk voelde ik mij er tot aangetrokken en ben ik weer naar de tattooshop gegaan. De ideale plek hiervoor was mijn linker onderarm, aan de buitenkant. En dat is waar hij nu staat. Het is voor mij een herinnering aan het feit dat ik niet iedereen zijn fouten kwalijk moet nemen. Iedereen maakt fouten, en er zit verschil tussen een grote fout en een kleine fout. Liegen of verzwijgen is iets anders. Ik had ooit een beste vriendin, 3 jaar lang, waarvan uiteindelijk bleek dat ze de helft van haar leven had gelogen. Zo goed kon ik haar dus blijkbaar ook niet meer. Dat neem ik haar erg kwalijk, maar toen later een vriendin tegen mij loog behandelde ik haar hetzelfde als dat vorige meisje. Dat verdiende ze niet.

Mijn derde tatoeage is een sleutel met een hart bovenaan. Misschien niet de meest originele, maar wel mijn meest waardevolle tatoeage. Deze heb ik namelijk samen met mijn moeder. Ik op mijn pols, zij boven haar enkel.

Mijn vierde tatoeage is er een die ik "pas" een half jaar heb. Het is het Foo Fighters logo en man, wat is ie vet. Hij staat boven mijn achillespees, aan de onderkant van mijn kuit dus. Ik heb deze genomen omdat ik al een aantal jaar helemaal wild van ze ben. Vorige jaar zag ik ze voor het eerst op Pinkpop en mijn god, fuck. Wat onwijs geweldig fantastisch was dat. Ze wisten iedereen, maar dan ook iedereen bij het optreden te betrekken. Als je dan de hoeveelheid mensen ziet, is dat nog knapper dan dat het al klinkt. Het was het beste optreden van welke band dan ook, van die ik tot nu toe heb gezien. Net zo als bij Neil Young, ben ik "bang" dat deze band mij voor altijd waardevol zal blijven en dat ik ze voor altijd lief zal hebben. Of ze een kut album maken, of dat ze stoppen, ze blijven een band waar ik heel veel van hou. Als ik zeg dat deze band perfect is, geloven jullie het vast niet, maar het is echt waar. Na hun optreden op Pinkpop heb ik dan ook een dip gehad. Voor mijn gevoel kon een optreden van welke artiest dan ook, NOOIT beter zijn. Dat voel ik nog steeds zo, maar er zijn zat onwijs goede concerten waar ik het ook zo erg naar mijn zin kan hebben.

Ik vind tatoeages een kunstvorm. Al zie ik soms (eigenlijk vaak..) tatoeages die ik gewoon dom vind. Bijvoorbeeld een tattoo met een naam van je geliefde. Bitch PLEASE, als het over is zit je dagenlang te janken en moet je hem laten cover-uppen. Bij de meeste kijk ik al naar dat punt uit als ik er uberhaupt al over hoor. Ook tribals vind ik een enorm opgeblazen ding. Wat lelijk kunnen die zijn zeg. Het zijn dan ook meestal van die macho's met te grote spieren waarvan hun hele lichaam er misvormd uit ziet, die ze hebben. En dan vooral op hun bovenarm he, om hun spier heen zodat het extra opvalt natuurlijk. LELIJK. AFKNAPPER. Maar goed, dat is mijn smaak. En die van nog zo'n 16 miljoen mensen. En dan heb je nog het aarsgewei. Meid, hijs je broek op en doe je shirt naar beneden want dat lelijke ding van je komt boven je bilnaad en broek uit. Gatverdamme zeg. Degene die dat aantrekkelijk vinden zijn de macho's met de tribals om hun veel te grote spieren.
Er zijn natuurlijk veel mensen met voordelen over mensen met tatoeages. Al heb ik daar zelf niet veel mee te maken. Behalve mijn opa, die vind het vreselijk en weet niet eens dat ik ze heb. Hoeft hij ook niet te weten, want ik wil hem nog niet dood hebben. Ik vind altijd dat je zulke mensen, met voordelen, gewoon het tegendeel moet bewijzen. Is niet zo moeilijk, gewoon beschaafd zijn en dan ineens je mouwen oprollen. Natuurlijk wel normaal door praten, maar kijken of zij anders reageren. Als ze dat doen, extra aardig en lievig doen. En als het dan nog niet goed is kunnen ze gewoon opbokken.
Ook zijn er mensen die zeuren dat je later helemaal vol zit als je er nu al 4 hebt. Ja mensen, want na 4 tatoeages is er echt geen plek meer op je lichaam!!!!!11 En wat als ik later helemaal vol zit? Is toch zeker mijn keus? Ik vind het persoonlijk niet mooi, en verder dan 1 arm vol zal ik dan ook nooit komen maar zeik gewoon niet zo. Dat ik er nu 4 heb betekend niet dat ik er later helemaal vol mee zit.

Ik snap dat ik nu nog jong ben, en dat mijn kans op een goede baan verminderd met elke zichtbare tattoo die ik neem. Het is en blijft mijn keus, ik weet het en het klinkt ook allemaal heel erg eigenwijs maar ik wil gewoon een baan. Zo lang ik maar geld verdien om mezelf te onderhouden vind ik het prima.

En voor iedereen die nog komt vragen: doet een tatoeage pijn? NATUURLIJK DOET DAT PIJN. Op de ene plek meer als op de andere en voor de ene mens meer als voor de andere. Wat doet je denken dat een naald in je huid geen pijn zal doen? Sjongejonge zeg. En nu nooit meer vragen alsjeblieft.

Think before you ink.

2 days of great things.

I decided to do another blog today. The previous one wasn't about the fun I'm going to have next week. Tuesday I'm going to go shopping all by myself. And I am SO looking forward to that. It has been a while and I forgot how much I love it. I'm planning on returning with at least 4 bags FULL of clothes. I already told you I'm quite picky so I wonder if I'm going to make it to those 4 bags. We shall see! And when I bought everything I will show it to you on pictures, deal?

The other thing I would like to write about is next Wednesday. I'm seeing Gavin DeGraw twice then. YES. TWICE. He's coming to That's Live, a part of the dutch radio station 3fm, which is actually my favorite radio station in the entire world. It also gets presented by my favorite 'DJ' Eric Corton. At That's Live, I might actually get the chance to meet Gavin. That would be awesome but I'm not counting on it too much since everybody there wants a piece of him. Now that sounds gross and it reminds me of Britney Spears. After That's Live, Krijnie, Anita, Marloes, some more people I don't know yet & me go to Amsterdam for Gavin's gig in the "Melkweg". Let's not forget that my best friend Tessa is gonna be at That's Live also <3 I haven't seen her in a while and I really miss her!! My other friend, Savannah, is also coming to That's Live and the Melkweg. It's gonna be a blast! Can hardly wait but I'm gonna have to :-(!!

Have a nice weekend.

Lots of Love, 

Michelle.

Attracted to a stranger.

A couple of weeks ago I saw him for the first time. He's a stranger to me but he's on my mind 70% of the time. I wonder what his name is, what he likes to do, which music he likes and what his character is like. He asked me something, I answered his question and later he came back to ask more. Nothing special, can't tell what it was since people that are close to me might read this also, yet it meant something to me. I liked the fact that he talked to me and I wanted him to come back again. He didn't. He didn't come back for about 6 weeks. But today he came back. And after I saw him all I kept thinking about was him. I like the fact I don't know him too well, that might ruin everything and make him not interesting at all. But at the same time I really want to talk to him. That might not be the best plan ever considering I'd get totally awkward. It's kind of strange to think about a stranger very often. I don't even know his name or where he works. I guess I'm going to wait another six weeks for him to show up again.

Lots of love.

Money motivates.

Ever since September I've got a job at a supermarket and the only thing that motivates me is my pay check. I like the customers and my colleagues but they don't keep me going, the money I get at the end of every 4 weeks, does that. And that still doesn't motivate me to work harder but since I have to if I want to stay, I'm gonna try to work harder. We have to get our job done in 4 hours but with me it mostly takes 4,5 or 5. Oops. I want to keep my job so I can do fun things in the summer but I bet I don't get to stay which will be a shame. I hope I can at least stay til the end of March so I can buy my camera I've been saving up for the past month. It's fun in the supermarket, when I'm at work I mostly walk through the store looking for other colleagues to have fun with. And most of the customers like a good joke too. That makes my job a little less hard to do. I have trouble lifting heavy boxes which contain things like sugar, juice or cleaning liquid. Sometimes my back hurt so much when I get home and I'm always tired. In the afternoon I mostly sleep for about an hour or maybe 2.

But still I get paid good and I can do fun stuff. So I can nag about getting up early, having a sore back and lifting heavy things but at the end of the month my motivation is back.