Family Matters.

It's time for a blog dedicated to my family because it's true, family means everything to me. Without my family I would've never became the person I am now.

I don't have a lot of friends in my hometown, 2, maybe 3. And those friends don't have time to do anything fun because they have their studies. Since I'm not studying yet, I've been spending the past year mostly with my family. And I loved every second of it. My mother and I spent a lot of time together and most of the times were fun and great. When I go back to study I'm going to miss spending time with her. I will barely have any time left to do fun things with her. I've also spent a lot of time with my grandmother who I love very much. The thought about seeing her (and the other family members of course) a lot less makes me kind of sad. I've become very attached to my family since they're all I have here.

When I was younger and also didn't have any friends, they were always there for me. I could come by whenever I wanted. And now I'm doing something back for them by visiting them and doing fun things with them. When my mom, grandmother and I go shopping together I feel proud. 3 generations, 3 different personalities and bellyaches caused by laughter.

I'm glad I got friends though. You can't share too much information with your family, sometimes you just need a friend. And I'm lucky enough to have such awesome friends that I can trust. Thank you for being there for me.

Even though I see some of my family members not as much as I want to see them, I still love them just as much as the others I see a lot.

My family is my world. They rock my world. I love them with all my heart and I want to thank them for being there for me when everybody else wasn't. But I also want to thank them for ALWAYS being there for me, whenever I felt alone or upset, whenever I felt happy and lucky. They're always there, they are the ones I trust the most.

Getting rid of the past.

When you clean your room, you find a lot back. Letters from 4 years ago, drawings from high school and maybe even a piece of clothing you never wore. I found them all today. It has been a while since I cleaned out my desk, but I finally did.

I found a letter from an old friend, saying some of her best times were the times with me, shopping or going out for dinner or whatever. But when I read that now, I don't get how someone can write that and lie to my face. I don't get how you can call someone your best friend when you know you're constantly lying to her about your life and it's about to come out. I also can't believe that I've been so blind. She meant a lot to me for a while but after she lied, I just kicked her out of my life. I don't want to waste any more time on people like her. If you read this: don't ever expect me to talk to you. I might forgive you, just to make myself feel better but I will never ever talk to you again.

I also found lots of drawings and poems that were at least 5 years old. It's fun to see how much I've grown. Not in drawings or poems, but in my personality. Things I worried about back then, are things that seem so little now. They are now my smallest problems. I also loved to see how much fantasy I already had back then and how I never lost it.

After my desk I went on to my closet. I found a dress I recently bought and actually wore. But I hate it. It looks ridiculous on me and it's the worst thing I ever bought... I also found another dress that I never wore. I wanted it so bad that I bought the only one left, 2 sizes too big. I tried it on in the store and that's the only time I wore it. Biggest waste of money ever. Together with the other dress then.. It's fun to see how I can combine my old clothes with the new ones that represent the new me. A couple of years ago I looked ridiculous, too bad I didn't notice that up until last year. Luckily it turned out right and I have almost no pictures of me in those clothes. Ha!

As you can read, I don't have anything to talk about but I just wanted to blog.
Thanks for wasting your time on reading this

Love,
Michelle.

Bored

Hi there. I haven't been blogging that much because I don't have anything to tell. Previously I knew what to talk about but I haven't been doing anything the past month. When I have something to tell, I'll blog again. Sorry. X